This is an exiting time to be alive. We are watching the world change before our eyes. Never has it been more clear that if humanity aligns itself together we can transform the world. A year ago we would never have believed the world could come to a standstill.
We enter a liminal space where the impossible becomes possible, and the future is in the mystery. Never has it been more important to shift our vibration from fear and apathy, to wake up to love, and call in a new reality.
The work begins with ourselves, each and every one of us. We cannot shift the vibration of anyone else until we shift our own. A vital part of this transformation is to clear our relationship to our bodies, emotions, and sexuality, so we can fully love ourselves, connect to our soul calling, and powerfully live our life from a place of love for life, rather than fear of death.
"Freeing Eros" is my personal expression of the shift that is coming. Check out The International School of Temple Arts and Wild Love 2020 for other expressions of this energy.
I believe in a world where eros if free. I've tasted it in small experiments of 30-50 people and I know that the world needs this, is crying out for it. I will do my part as much as I am able to help bring this into manifestation.
My journey into conscious sexuality began in 2011 when I was 23 years old, not long graduated from Cambridge University with a science degree. I looked at my yoni (AKA vulva) in the mirror and felt disgusted by what I saw. I witnessed myself feeling disgust and knew that this was not a healthy reaction to have to a part of my own body. Something had to change.
The reason I was looking at my yoni in the mirror was because I suspected I'd never had an orgasm and was very ashamed of that. I was completely unable to talk about any of this with my then partner, friends, or family (I struggled to even write the word 'sex' never mind talk about it...) and knew of no professional help that existed in this area. So I turned to the internet, which had very few resources back then, but it did give me the idea that self pleasure was a good place to start, (something which I never did,) and a furtive google search for "how to masturbate" finally gave me the advice to start by having a look at my vulva with a mirror.
I also realised that I had an extreme aversion to being naked, to the point where even with my partner of 3 years I would still turn the light off before getting undressed. Even in my room on my own, when I changed my cloths I would do one part of my body at a time, never all of it at once, except to have a shower.
It's been a loooong journey since then. In 2012 I quit my job, left my home and went travelling around the world. In 2013 I met ISTA (the International School of Temple arts) which was the first time I felt that anyone was making sense about sexuality, and also the first time I entertained any ideas of spirituality.
I lived in London for 4 years in a sex-positive polyamorous queer community where we ran events and play parties that could have transformative effects on the attendees, just to give people a space where they felt free and accepted in their sexual and gender expression. This did a lot for opening me up about sexuality and being able to talk about it and witness it in many different forms.
In 2015 I took ISTA's L1 training program and that's when everything began to change for me. I was convinced that this was the work that would not only transform my life, but could transform the world. Finally in 2018 I embarked on three years of diving deep into this work, doing many trainings and workshops with ISTA, Highden Mystery school, and others.
In 2020 I graduated from ISTA's Practitioner Training program, and was all ready to begin my work as a sacred sexual healing practitioner to spread all the gifts I had received in this work to others. Covid put a pause on that for about a year, but now it's time to settle into the new normal and start seriously offering this much needed work in the world.
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